July 01, 2005

1 July 2005

I had a pretty important meeting tonight with a close friend, Gail and I, which, as seems typical, kept us up extra late.  But again, as I said, it was important, to say the least.

Well, it has been really sad hearing about the loss of 16 special operations forces in a single shoot-down in Afghanistan by one of the Taliban.  They're trying to come back, and turn Afghanistan into Iraq East.  However, even the left-wing media in the U.S. reports that the numbers of insurgents and terrorists killed in Afghanistan in the last three months are more than triple the number of combined dead Americans, Afghan police and civilians.  That is instructive at how effective the comparatively small number of American troops compared to those in Iraq (30,000), in defeating Osama and Sheik Omar's boys and continuing to defeat them.  The truth is, Afghanistan is getting pacified, and the warlords have been turning over their control to the Karzai government, and many of the heroin poppy fields have been killed off by aerial spraying by both Afghan and U.S. forces.  A really cool interview was heard today on Hugh Hewitt's talk radio program (he of the major connection with the blogging movement with his book, appropriately called, 'Blog') with top wartime blogger Austin Bay, the transcript of which was recorded on Radio Blogger.com. 

It continually amazes me, when I hear the stories from the guys who are there in the Middle East, how completely different the reality of the situation is from the portrayal of the war in the mainstream media (MSM we call it now), not only in America but in the whole world.  That was confirmed to me in an interview on Hugh Hewitt's program with free-lance photographer/correspondent and blogger Michael Yon.  It is amazing his conclusion that, outside of about 10-16,000 insurgents in Iraq and maybe a few thousand more in Afghanistan, after being there almost a year, that nobody there wants the Americans to leave, until their governments are firmly in place, their own armed forces are strong enough to handle the terrorists on their own, and their societies have stabilized.

Well, more to come tomorrow.  But it is also important that America is still at risk, given that two Iraqis were arrested while being illegally smuggled near San Diego yesterday.  Doesn't that warm the hearts of everyone that is hoping that America 'finally gets theirs?'

Later.

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June 23, 2005

22-23 June 2005

Well, I am just sitting here, waiting on several things to happen.  I'm applying for the business loan I need for my import-export business, and I'm waiting for the decision from the SBA--that's Small Business Administration for all you non-U.S. guys.  And I'm waiting for my lovely bride--the sweet and foxy Gayle (I know she spells it differently, but I always found this one more sexy.), to complete the latest stage of webpage building for our self-same business.  So, I try to work on tax reports I have to file, doing further research, working on finding good affiliate programs to make money for us, doing some writing, writing in my blog here.  Not too productive, but gaining ground nonetheless.

Nothing new in the realm of immigration law, or in the realm of intellectual property (my new other area of legal interest).  But I am sure that will change in the next few days, since I hear that the U.S. Supreme Court will be deciding the Mozilla case any day now, the determination on whether file-sharing services are all violating the copyright laws.  I'm hopeful that the Supremes will side with progress and free expression and not with big entertainment corporations (many of which it has been said are controlled by the Mafia), but that's a little bit of a stretch, I know. 

No new movies, either.  That's ok.  Not been paid in a little while, either.  A great opportunity to trust in God's care. 

Well, I am going to get off to sleepy land.  There's no reason to take up dead space with empty talk.  More later.  Adios.
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June 04, 2005

3-4 June

As usual, I'm running behind.  But I do have things to share in a few hours:  a movie review of 'Cinderella Man' (totally awesome movie); a little bit of highlights of my 3 weeks in Missouri and Texas, and some things I've learned; some information about some neat business contacts who are selling some neat products; some information about new proposed changes in U.S. immigration law that a lot of people will really want to know; and some new links to some interesting spiritual information.

It's 1:45 a.m.  Which means, I've got to go.  No more 4 a.m. late-nighters.  So, I'll talk later.  Adios.
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June 02, 2005

2 June--12:30 a.m.

Well, I promised I would start the blogging again, but time and distractions are once again my masters.  It's either do this routine justice, or keep my promise to Gail not to stay up late.  Well, then, see you.  I'll be on later this morning.  Ciao.
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May 07, 2005

Kingdom of Heaven

Last weekend I received the pleasure of an invitation to view an advance showing of Kingdom of Heaven, the historical drama movie, with Orlando Bloom in the starring role.  It centers in the period spanning the time between the Second and Third Crusade during the tumultuous 12th century.  From 1084 until 1187, Jerusalem was ruled by a Christian king.  Most of them were pretty decent, Godfrey I, who first ruled the region, and Baldwin were notable for that.  Toward the end those that ran Jerusalem, Guy de Chatillon and Reynaud, were absolutely the worst. 

Indeed, the kings of Jerusalem constantly clashed with the popes who ruled European Christendom during that period for precisely the reason that the Christian kings refused to convert  Jews and Muslims by force.  While Baldwin (played in the movie by Edward Norton) and his better predecessors strove to create a tolerant and harmonious city, the pope sent waves of new soldiers and knights, especially among the group called the Knights Templar, to provoke a new war to undo the treaty signed 14  years previously between Saladin and Baldwin, and to make Jerusalem exclusively Christian.  The intention of the church leadership was to force everyone to convert to what passed for Christian faith, and to slaughter the rest, the same as what runaway renegade knights did when Jerusalem was first captured.  While the new commander/king, Godfrey was a noble king, the knights got out of control and slaughtered 20,000 Muslims and Jews.  The Knights Templar were a continuous thorn in the side of the Christian monarchs and their more moderate friends, many of who took up more Eastern customs to harmonize with their new culture (So much so that Eva Green, as the queen Sabella, and sister of Baldwin (dying of leprosy), dressed so much like the part of a local woman--albeit a rich and progressive one--that I first thought she was a Muslim noblewoman, which looked in the previews like a forbidden interreligious love between her and Bloom's Balian).

They sought to undo all that Baldwin attempted to do in making Jerusalem a city where all the major faiths of the city (Christian, Jew, and Muslim), would be able to worship and visit their sacred sites.  They arrogantly thought that God would give only them victory, believing that wearing a cross on the front of their knightly tunics and killing Saracens would ensure their place in heaven (Ridley Scott, past Oscar winning producer-director of Gladiator, and who produced and directed Kingdom, has publicly stated that he highlighted those attitudes on both Christian and Muslim sides to illustrate the background and illogic of religious-based hatred.).  They provoked war by violating the former treaty of Baldwin and Saladin by attacking Muslim trade caravans, raping and killing the sister of Saladin in one of them.  And the provocation backfired, the Christian armies divided, with many of the knights deserting the fight (Tiberius, played by Jeremy Irons, illustrated the moderate element in the historical occurrence), and the rest were slaughtered in a key battle in the Judean desert by Saladin's armies.  The city was then conquered by Saladin (played in the movie by Ghassan Massoud), after a surprisingly hard siege against Jerusalem's defenders, led by Balian, and the city did not completely pass out of Muslim control until Israel's victory over the Arabs in the Six-Day War of 1967, 780 years later.

The story centers around Balian, a humble blacksmith, tormented by his wife's loss of their child in childbirth and grief-driven suicide, his murder of the priest who mutilated her body to assure her 'damnnation' according to Roman Catholic law, and his search for salvation and meaning for him and the woman he once loved.  His rise to become a true knight, and the everlasting fame as "the defender of Jerusalem," as well as his coming to grips with both his honor, his desire for the forbidden love of Queen Sabella (who was married without consent to the ruthless Guy de Chatillon), and overcoming the religious superstition of the time, is the real story that has present-day application now.  There have been many other reviews of the movie, but I want to lock in to one theme, the one I think Mr. Scott thought central to Kingdom. 

That is what I see as the struggle of faith.  No, not the struggle between faiths, that is too obvious, but the struggle of faith.  It is the struggle which Scott notes that still makes Jerusalem of today a troubled city.  Many reviewers I have read, including Roger Ebert's otherwise quite complimentary one, seem to confuse Balian's criticisms of religious zealotry
for open unbelief.  Such shows an ignorance of the HUGE difference between faith and religious superstition, which we see in every spiritual communion of today, from Christianity to Islam to probably Wicca, and definitely within the deadliest religion of all...atheism and the worship of the self which is so common in our world.  In the end, what is the difference between Nero, Nietzsche, Stalin, Torquemada, Mao, and Osama bin Laden?  It's only the object of their misguided zeal and intolerance.  Rather, Balian is ably portrayed by Bloom as a man who holds the truest spirituality of all, that of one who puts the needs of people and the need to show humanity over religious dogma or outward spiritual---or political correctness.

Religious intolerance and cynical non-belief is fought in the film by both of the 'dreamer-warriors' shown in the film:  Balian and Saladin.  Both refuse to give in to those who think that anything is proper in God's name, Saladin versus his religious advisor and Balian (and Baldwin) versus the fanatical Templars and priests.  But both also refuse to abandon faith for cyncism.  Balian refuses to murder his own enemy, Guy de Chatillon, even though Guy sought Balian's own death, Saladin honors the treaty of peace with Baldwin, and Balian also holds to his Christian code of honor, honors his late knight-father's faith (Liam Neesom) and refuses to run away when Guy and Reynald commits the kingdom to disaster, rejecting the loss of faith by his mentor Tiberius (Irons).  Critics will make a mistake when they assume unbelief by Balian when he refuses to believe his wife is in hell, or when he burns the bodies of dead fighters in Jerusalem to prevent plague, in violation of Catholic law, saying "God will understand.  If he does not then God does not exist."  He is not denying God, he is denying the stupidity of rigid religiousity.  I have expressed such sentiments at various times in my own life, and I am a devout Christian.  I therefore easily understood Balian's ease at mixing faith and reason, and the need for both.

Faith maintains hope, wonder, and a belief in the dignity of one's fellow man, and the boundaries necessary for the proper treatment of one's fellows and one's world.  Reason eliminates ignorance and ensures balance and proportionality to faith.  Balian exemplifies this tension---this necessary equilibrium.  We have all seen the result of those who fail to respect that principle.  Failure to maintain this balance always results in madness.  Balian rose from humble origins to greatness because he understood the principle, and never forsook his honesty.  And in doing so, he achieved salvation.  He returned to France in honor, being forever honored in history as the great Defender of Jerusalem, with position as a knight and a baron, and with the love of his life, the by-then widowed Sabella.  In that another key principle, rising out of the observance of that balance comes.  The way of humanity---faith & reason--- is always harder, but it is always greater in its final reward.  In that, Balian is, much more than that of most of those who pretend to the status of spiritual leadership, in community with his Lord and Savior.  And Scott also shows that the majority of mankind, of whatever background, as in the scene of the incredibly stout defense of Jerusalem (I was wowed seeing all of Saladin's siege engines destroyed by the defenders) by Balian's citizen soldiers-knighted by Balian, always seem to be able to sense authentic faith and nobility when it appears.  A present example is shown in the widespread love for the late Karol Vojtyla/Pope John Paul II.  The world is full of pompous men of religion, for which they long have been sickened, but they crave and flock to the genuine article.  Balian drew that kind of adulation, not only for inspiring Jerusalem's Christians, Jews, and Muslims to fight as one for their city and its dream of unity and peace, fighting Saladin's massive army to a standstill, but for showing the humanity not to sacrifice his people for his own ego, a selfish desire to hold the city.  He surrenders on Saladin's promise of clemency, which promise he keeps.

I loved the movie.  The historical background was not adequately explained to the audience, which caused my wife to fill half the movie asking me questions, but otherwise was well-written, and much more faithful to the time than many give Scott credit for.  Those who derisively call this film an attack on Christianity are simply in need to come to grips that Jesus is not in need of historical whitewash.  Some who operated in his name were indeed monsters.  We can take comfort that the monsters of other spiritual paths have a much bloodier slate to own up to, which they one day will, when the craze of present-day political correctness will have been consigned to its own dustbin of history.

--Adios.


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May 06, 2005

The Day of Joy

No, I didn't make a trillion dollars, or win the PowerBall Lottery.  I made it to 19 years with my bride, or I should say, she made it with me.  Such a woman....such will, determination, love, wisdom, righteousness, stubborn desire to be an instrument of God to reshape the character of a self-centered, immature, irresponsible, underperforming law student, into enough of a man to look at myself in the mirror every morning without feeling I have to take a shower to wash off the slime that would palpably take over me.  And being beautiful and sexy doesn't hurt, either. 

In recent years she has been battered by the ravages of what menopause does to a woman in her early fifties.  An out-of-control adrenal gland, firing off cortisol at the rate of a machine gun, renders her almost incapable of sleep.  Her eschewance of drugs, prescription or otherwise, along with our lack of good finances, have kept us away from doctors and forced her to rely on God and good nutrition to give her the ability to sleep.  Arthritic and fibromyalogic conditions, which causes her pelvic, knee, and other musculo-skeletal regions to become inflammed and infirm, causes her to sometimes walk like a woman much older than herself.  It is sad to watch, and even sadder that I have probably helped contribute to her problem, with the stress that lack of finances and lack of wisdom have caused.  For that alone I owe her complete love, fidelity, and healthy workaholism. 

I love this woman, Gail Evelyn Wilson Fernandez.  Unlike the benighted runaway bride, or perhaps flaky bride-to-be, Jennifer Wilbanks of Duluth, Georgia, this lady did not run from trouble....ever.  Not from me, not from our children, not from the many other things that tried to break her.  And there were definitely times that few would have blamed her for running.  But she didn't, and she has a husband and daughters who would defend her to the death to show for it.  Wendy & Jeanine's character---resplendent in their own right, is testament to Gail's character and inner beauty. 

And she is, in the truest sense of the word, a Christian.  Not the phony, hypocritical, self-righteous, tradition and institution-choked, one-dimensional plastic kind that seems to be all too typical of religious people in general and Christians in particular.  But the kind of authentic kind, completely human in her spirituality, that has made faith in Jesus of Nazareth so attractive to others that He is able to command a faith of billions over two millenia.  Young people from backgrounds as widely diverse as you can imagine embrace the faith because of her; young women from Rio de Janeiro to Paris to Seoul to Okinawa to Guangzhong to Prague to Houston to San Diego are able to call Gail their spiritual mother.

She is embarassed by this adulation, frequently points out the failure of others to heed her wisdom as somehow evidence of her own dysfunctionality.  The heartbreak of her incredibly gifted classical soprano's voice inability to gain the opportunity to have the successful commercial audience she has deserved since her teens has been a sorrow that is a dagger in her heart and mine.  And the rejection we continually had from traditional religious organizations--churches, as we sought to do His work tore at her soul, as much in its inexplicability as in its raw pain.  But she never let that be her end, she did not let her brokenness break her.  For that most of all I love her, and I am most motivated to work to make our later years as full of golden fulfillment as our earlier years have been with disappointment.

This is your day, Gail.  I will not forget.  I will not relent.  I will not surrender.  You shall see, as did your Lord and Master, "the fruit and the travail of your soul, and be satisfied."  A little longer, my love.  It will happen.  Let all who read this be witness to my love, and my prophecy.  Amen.
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May 01, 2005

30 April-1 May 2005

I'm at 1:40 a.m., trying to do a lot of catch-up work, sitting with Gail and trying to find a movie worth watching, to no avail.  I read about the Jennifer Wilbanks fake kidnap report, and I bet someone else was in on it.  She is just so totally screwed!  I bet that she will go to jail.  I hope so---I can't stand rich white girls who act like the world revolves around them.  Prison--getting gang raped by lesbians and guards--her life destroyed--it would be too good.  Well, I can only hope.  God may forgive, but us mortals want justice, especially for someone who is just flat stupid and selfish.

In the meantime, I need to get to getting some business done.  There's a lady in Pakistan, and a guy in Brazil needing it, wanting to immigrate here.  I'll do my best.  Out.
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April 29, 2005

28-29 April 2005

I have not been able to say much these last three days, because I am having to deal with more pressing matters on our home front, as far as our business is concerned.  I can say no more, of course, but I wanted to get something written down.

Big story for me as an attorney:  I just want the U.S. Senate to get all this stuff about judges brought to a vote.  Either George Bush gets to appoint who he wants to the federal judiciary, like every other president has done, or we are going to let a small group of ya-yas, led by Ted Kennedy decide that judges are kings and that democracy is only going to work the way the political Left wants it.  Oh, well, it never ends. 
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April 20, 2005

Well, hello.  I am once again completely zoned out.  I need sleep.  I need time to work.  I have spent most of my day getting involved in chasing around town trying to take care of bill and bank problems.  Did so.  I'll be back in a little while.  Hasta luego, baby.

Oh, and way to go Franz Josef Ratsinger.  You the man.  You are Benedict.  You are the best man, and I think you will surprise everybody. 

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April 19, 2005

19 April 2005

Hi.  This has become my blog....at least for now.  I have a pathetic time adding on links---anywhere.  I have tried lining up links on my blog on Blogger, and it is a big time hassle.  So, I'm going to see how this works.

I have done precious little to get the business started today, but plenty to fight off the green-eyed evil creditor monster.   I really want to see changes in my life right away.  If that's being selfish, so be it.  Well, I have to go already.  Gotta help Gail treat the pets with their medicine.  Adios.
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